It's difficult to turn your back to someone whom you really want to be with, to let someone feel he's neglected, when in fact he's important. To show that someone that you dont mind, when in fact you care a lot. To avoid someone, when in fact you want to take a stolen glance. To treat someone as an ordinary being, when in fact he really is special. To let someone realize that his presence is naturally welcome when in fact it creates extraordinary excitement. To say things contrary to what you feel. To laugh when in fact you want to cry your heart out.